Boobies and Noobies podcast impressions

Alright just like the Frigay the 13th show I held off on talking about this one for several reasons. I wasn’t sure how to tread into this without it looking, creepy. Listening to this podcast made me feel like being an 11 year old listening in through a hidden microphone to his sister’s friends during one of their sleep overs. Not that I ever did that but you know stuff you see on TV (Goldbergs) but whatever I checked it out so here we go.

The show’s premise is simple enough, it’s a group of people talking about romance novels. The hosts are clearly having a good time in the episodes and it sounds like they know the topic they are interested in.

I didn’t spend a lot of time listening intently to each episode for this review. I have been a follower of the show on Twitter for a while now but was too afraid to peak in to this world. As someone who did, on rare occasions “borrow” romance novels without asking out of curiosity I can say the hosts here have a much better grasp of the subject than I. My interest was more out of curiosity than anything. Of course my desire to be more feminine clearly intrigued me which is why I do highly recommend this show if you are interested in getting a closer look into the insights of women who do read romance novels.

Truth be told I am likely to go back and give this a much deeper shot in the near future but for now I just wanted to pop in and see what it was all about. I don’t think it is going to appeal to everyone. My own curiosity will not match most people. I don’t know who I should recommend this to, to be honest. I want to say trans women who are interested in learning more about how to explore femininity might be interested as an educational tool, or even peer bonding if you want to discuss these topics with other women, trans or otherwise.

I suppose the core audiences is likely women and possibly men who enjoy reading these types of novels. I can say I’ve dabbled but never really spent much time beyond that. I would say the hosts are having fun with the show so that is a bonus. I didn’t hear anything that made me say nope this is trash. It was a group of people with a mission and it sounds like the show has a pretty solid focus. It kind of reminds me of that Hanna Montana song Fly on the Wall. I would rate it as entertaining with a clear focus and a fairly specific audience range. Production values are strong, the hosts are into the material and clearly having fun doing the show. That all the way around should make it entertaining for someone who is into the subject matter, in this case romance novels apparently.

Less mature male listeners will likely be drawn to the name of the show if nothing else.

Meet Chloe, my new cat: could MS survive without Xbox? GameCube and Wii U collecting: He Man Wrestling toys and more!

In this excited episode of The Dark Web Podcast, THERAT introduced Chloe to the world. Who is Chloe? My new cat! She is so cute. You should check out the video to see her in action. 


Topics include what movies/TV shows I watched this week.

Starting a vinyl record collection? Maybe?

Could the Microsoft survive without Xbox?

What factors make collecting for Nintendo GameCube different than Wii U? Why did one get better support than the other despite the differences in their predecessors success? 

Toy topic is a brief discussion of Masters of the WWE Universe. Not much to go on so check it out.

Also what is up with The Walking Dead? What is the nitpick now? Find out in this episode here at The Spiders Lair, Where Chaos Resides. Stay Cool.

Frigay the 13th Podcast thoughts

I have been saying for a while now I was going to begin reviewing podcasts. I wanted to wait until I was comfortable talking about my personal stuff I was hiding before I did so because I knew if I wrote an honest review of this particular podcast before my reveal it was not going to be all that honest. I was trying to pick shows I have heard more than one episode before I reviewed them. Since that is not the case here consider this more of a general musings than a proper review.

Here goes. The premise of the show is you have two guys that are both openly gay and horror fans. The show appealed to me because talks about horror movies which I am a fan. The thing is they do more than just review horror movies from an LGBT perspective, they tie it into an aspect of real life horror tales, in an attempt to analyze the real world horror through the lens of the art. It’s an interesting concept.

I only listened to the most recent episode so I don’t have a lot to go on. Basically what they did was discuss two topics involving horrible people from society. They did an old Hollywood segment and a new Hollywood segment. They talked about recent controversies surrounding Kevin Spacey and Brian Singer. They then dove into a discussion on two films they tied into the topic.

It was an interesting show. Based exclusively on the name of the show combined with their social media posts the show was nothing like I was expecting. While I would have been fine with two gay guys talking about horror movies and doing voices, having fun or doing a lighter show, I was very impressed with the maturity of which they handled their subject matter. It was a decidedly darker show than I expected. As someone who lived through the horror of being bullied for being different, let’s be honest I wasn’t as good at hiding who I was as I thought, I can say it was a relief to be able to listen to relatable stories that reminded me of the things I had to go through. Fortunately my story isn’t entirely as dark as some of the topics discussed but it was relatable nonetheless.

The hosts are very familiar with the topics. They are clearly fans of not just cinema but the Hollywood lifestyle as well. This does allow them to offer a pretty deep looking into the darkness they covered. As someone who calls their website The Spiders Lair, I can appreciate taking a stroll into the darker side of humanity.

I would highly recommend the show for anyone who is a fan of cinema, especially classic cinema and horror movies in general. The show does have a gay slant, as the title implies, but don’t let this turn you off, they are able to talk about these topics in a manner I believe was respectful and insightful. They do speak opinion on the show so fair warning. Also there is profanity.

I would need to listen to more episodes to give it a true and proper rating but for now I enjoyed what I heard enough to subscribe. My intention is to go back and check out some of their earlier shows in due time. The episodes were reasonable length too. I have a hard time with 3+ hour long podcasts, which there are many, but a sub 90 minute show is manageable for me.

Be sure to check them out and as always, Stay cool.

Stephanie is out, new format to show comng, Retro Nintendo topic and more!

The show is a little short. I recorded it with the expectation I would have a guest. Due to an error on my part we didn’t schedule the interview as planned. In the interest of keeping the show going here is the condensed episode. It cuts off abruptly as I was expecting to finish it later.


The new format going forward is going to be shorter, around 60-90 minutes in length. There will be far less, if any, swearing and since I am outing myself in the process a lot of the fear and anger I was holding onto is gone so the show is changing to fit my new more open life decisions.

The topics this week include a brief look back at some stuff I talked about recently. I talked about my self discovery at an early age and how I held onto fear and anger as I hid who I was from the world.

I talked about Supergirl on Netflix. Might be getting into that show maybe. I had a retro Nintendo topic where I tried to decide if a Nintendo only gamer or a NO Nintedo at all gamer would have the upper hand. There was other stuff planned but it go cut short. Anyways thanks for listening and stay cool.


Out but not down. Or down but not out? You decide. Stay cool.

Discovering my place in the world

These last two years have been the most complicated time in my entire life. I have spent a tremendous amount of my life trying to figure out who I was. What I was. Where I fit in. Two years ago I started coming to terms with things I had kept hidden for most of my life. Things I was either afraid of, or ashamed to admit. That is no longer the case. I don’t have to talk about things that are personal, things that are nobody’s business, but I want to get things off my chest, as they say set the record straight.

When I was 11 years old I discovered I had an inclination to explore the taboo world of cross-dressing. At first I considered the implications. Does this make me gay? Well I was attracted to females so I thought if it did I must be a lesbian. I continued to struggle.

I had a friend who was a cross-dresser turned transwoman who eventually transitioned fully. After I discovered the internet I began exploring other things. Seeking different perspectives and opinions. I never how to come to terms with my confusing sexual identity with my strong Christian faith. It was a struggle I had to discover for my self. It took years of agonizing over this one fact, my personal relationship with the Lord is, in fact, between me and God. Once I came to terms with I didn’t need to let people run my life. I know who I am now. I know what I am now. I am a Christian. I am a gender queer person with masculine and feminine tendencies and I am still a Christian. I am not homosexual, not in the strictest sense. At least I don’t know fully since I do question my own gender identity obviously this causes some confusion in the rest.

But, I determined it is my life to struggle with. I am the one who has to make the decisions. I am the one who has to decide who to let in, and who to cut out, of my life. I have decided that my life is my business. Of course I have to reconcile my choices with my beliefs but again, that’s for me to decide. God will judge me and I am comfortable with my relationship with him. I am comfortable in my unwavering faith.

Now as for the rest. Here is my stance. I am not going to undergo surgery or transition to becoming a woman. For a number of reasons I don’t want to discuss here, I don’t need to go through with that. I don’t want to be a drag queen in public either. You might be wondering if I am going to basically keep it, well to myself in private why bother coming clean? Well every individual who harbors these out of the ordinary feelings has to find their own voice. Every person’s struggle is personal. Does this mean I am “coming out of the closet” well if that term helps you understand what I am saying sure why not. Does it mean I am gay, trans, or gender fluid? Well again whatever helps you sleep at night.

No, what I want to make sure is this, I am who I am and I don’t care what other people think. I don’t want to hide anymore. As far as why I wrote this. I had to. I needed to make sure I set the record straight. I am not entirely gay nor am I completely straight. I am not entirely trans nor am I entirely gender fluid but I am not going to fit into a box. That is all.

There is another person living inside my mind, heart and soul. Her name is Stephanie Bri. I don’t give her a voice as often as she would like. But I have come to accept she isn’t a part of me, or rather a separate part of me. She is me. We are one. One person, one mind, with one goal. You will likely hear more from Stephanie in the future. At the very least I can finally admit she is real and I am okay with that.