Boobies and Noobies podcast impressions

Alright just like the Frigay the 13th show I held off on talking about this one for several reasons. I wasn’t sure how to tread into this without it looking, creepy. Listening to this podcast made me feel like being an 11 year old listening in through a hidden microphone to his sister’s friends during one of their sleep overs. Not that I ever did that but you know stuff you see on TV (Goldbergs) but whatever I checked it out so here we go.

The show’s premise is simple enough, it’s a group of people talking about romance novels. The hosts are clearly having a good time in the episodes and it sounds like they know the topic they are interested in.

I didn’t spend a lot of time listening intently to each episode for this review. I have been a follower of the show on Twitter for a while now but was too afraid to peak in to this world. As someone who did, on rare occasions “borrow” romance novels without asking out of curiosity I can say the hosts here have a much better grasp of the subject than I. My interest was more out of curiosity than anything. Of course my desire to be more feminine clearly intrigued me which is why I do highly recommend this show if you are interested in getting a closer look into the insights of women who do read romance novels.

Truth be told I am likely to go back and give this a much deeper shot in the near future but for now I just wanted to pop in and see what it was all about. I don’t think it is going to appeal to everyone. My own curiosity will not match most people. I don’t know who I should recommend this to, to be honest. I want to say trans women who are interested in learning more about how to explore femininity might be interested as an educational tool, or even peer bonding if you want to discuss these topics with other women, trans or otherwise.

I suppose the core audiences is likely women and possibly men who enjoy reading these types of novels. I can say I’ve dabbled but never really spent much time beyond that. I would say the hosts are having fun with the show so that is a bonus. I didn’t hear anything that made me say nope this is trash. It was a group of people with a mission and it sounds like the show has a pretty solid focus. It kind of reminds me of that Hanna Montana song Fly on the Wall. I would rate it as entertaining with a clear focus and a fairly specific audience range. Production values are strong, the hosts are into the material and clearly having fun doing the show. That all the way around should make it entertaining for someone who is into the subject matter, in this case romance novels apparently.

Less mature male listeners will likely be drawn to the name of the show if nothing else.

Meet Chloe, my new cat: could MS survive without Xbox? GameCube and Wii U collecting: He Man Wrestling toys and more!

https://www.podbean.com/media/share/pb-qyjcm-bc23a6

In this excited episode of The Dark Web Podcast, THERAT introduced Chloe to the world. Who is Chloe? My new cat! She is so cute. You should check out the video to see her in action. 

 

Topics include what movies/TV shows I watched this week.

Starting a vinyl record collection? Maybe?

Could the Microsoft survive without Xbox?

What factors make collecting for Nintendo GameCube different than Wii U? Why did one get better support than the other despite the differences in their predecessors success? 

Toy topic is a brief discussion of Masters of the WWE Universe. Not much to go on so check it out.

Also what is up with The Walking Dead? What is the nitpick now? Find out in this episode here at The Spiders Lair, Where Chaos Resides. Stay Cool.

Frigay the 13th Podcast thoughts

I have been saying for a while now I was going to begin reviewing podcasts. I wanted to wait until I was comfortable talking about my personal stuff I was hiding before I did so because I knew if I wrote an honest review of this particular podcast before my reveal it was not going to be all that honest. I was trying to pick shows I have heard more than one episode before I reviewed them. Since that is not the case here consider this more of a general musings than a proper review.

Here goes. The premise of the show is you have two guys that are both openly gay and horror fans. The show appealed to me because talks about horror movies which I am a fan. The thing is they do more than just review horror movies from an LGBT perspective, they tie it into an aspect of real life horror tales, in an attempt to analyze the real world horror through the lens of the art. It’s an interesting concept.

I only listened to the most recent episode so I don’t have a lot to go on. Basically what they did was discuss two topics involving horrible people from society. They did an old Hollywood segment and a new Hollywood segment. They talked about recent controversies surrounding Kevin Spacey and Brian Singer. They then dove into a discussion on two films they tied into the topic.

It was an interesting show. Based exclusively on the name of the show combined with their social media posts the show was nothing like I was expecting. While I would have been fine with two gay guys talking about horror movies and doing voices, having fun or doing a lighter show, I was very impressed with the maturity of which they handled their subject matter. It was a decidedly darker show than I expected. As someone who lived through the horror of being bullied for being different, let’s be honest I wasn’t as good at hiding who I was as I thought, I can say it was a relief to be able to listen to relatable stories that reminded me of the things I had to go through. Fortunately my story isn’t entirely as dark as some of the topics discussed but it was relatable nonetheless.

The hosts are very familiar with the topics. They are clearly fans of not just cinema but the Hollywood lifestyle as well. This does allow them to offer a pretty deep looking into the darkness they covered. As someone who calls their website The Spiders Lair, I can appreciate taking a stroll into the darker side of humanity.

I would highly recommend the show for anyone who is a fan of cinema, especially classic cinema and horror movies in general. The show does have a gay slant, as the title implies, but don’t let this turn you off, they are able to talk about these topics in a manner I believe was respectful and insightful. They do speak opinion on the show so fair warning. Also there is profanity.

I would need to listen to more episodes to give it a true and proper rating but for now I enjoyed what I heard enough to subscribe. My intention is to go back and check out some of their earlier shows in due time. The episodes were reasonable length too. I have a hard time with 3+ hour long podcasts, which there are many, but a sub 90 minute show is manageable for me.

Be sure to check them out and as always, Stay cool.

Stephanie is out, new format to show comng, Retro Nintendo topic and more!

https://www.podbean.com/media/share/pb-j3bu2-bb5000

The show is a little short. I recorded it with the expectation I would have a guest. Due to an error on my part we didn’t schedule the interview as planned. In the interest of keeping the show going here is the condensed episode. It cuts off abruptly as I was expecting to finish it later.

 

The new format going forward is going to be shorter, around 60-90 minutes in length. There will be far less, if any, swearing and since I am outing myself in the process a lot of the fear and anger I was holding onto is gone so the show is changing to fit my new more open life decisions.

The topics this week include a brief look back at some stuff I talked about recently. I talked about my self discovery at an early age and how I held onto fear and anger as I hid who I was from the world.

I talked about Supergirl on Netflix. Might be getting into that show maybe. I had a retro Nintendo topic where I tried to decide if a Nintendo only gamer or a NO Nintedo at all gamer would have the upper hand. There was other stuff planned but it go cut short. Anyways thanks for listening and stay cool.

 

Out but not down. Or down but not out? You decide. Stay cool.

Discovering my place in the world

These last two years have been the most complicated time in my entire life. I have spent a tremendous amount of my life trying to figure out who I was. What I was. Where I fit in. Two years ago I started coming to terms with things I had kept hidden for most of my life. Things I was either afraid of, or ashamed to admit. That is no longer the case. I don’t have to talk about things that are personal, things that are nobody’s business, but I want to get things off my chest, as they say set the record straight.

When I was 11 years old I discovered I had an inclination to explore the taboo world of cross-dressing. At first I considered the implications. Does this make me gay? Well I was attracted to females so I thought if it did I must be a lesbian. I continued to struggle.

I had a friend who was a cross-dresser turned transwoman who eventually transitioned fully. After I discovered the internet I began exploring other things. Seeking different perspectives and opinions. I never how to come to terms with my confusing sexual identity with my strong Christian faith. It was a struggle I had to discover for my self. It took years of agonizing over this one fact, my personal relationship with the Lord is, in fact, between me and God. Once I came to terms with I didn’t need to let people run my life. I know who I am now. I know what I am now. I am a Christian. I am a gender queer person with masculine and feminine tendencies and I am still a Christian. I am not homosexual, not in the strictest sense. At least I don’t know fully since I do question my own gender identity obviously this causes some confusion in the rest.

But, I determined it is my life to struggle with. I am the one who has to make the decisions. I am the one who has to decide who to let in, and who to cut out, of my life. I have decided that my life is my business. Of course I have to reconcile my choices with my beliefs but again, that’s for me to decide. God will judge me and I am comfortable with my relationship with him. I am comfortable in my unwavering faith.

Now as for the rest. Here is my stance. I am not going to undergo surgery or transition to becoming a woman. For a number of reasons I don’t want to discuss here, I don’t need to go through with that. I don’t want to be a drag queen in public either. You might be wondering if I am going to basically keep it, well to myself in private why bother coming clean? Well every individual who harbors these out of the ordinary feelings has to find their own voice. Every person’s struggle is personal. Does this mean I am “coming out of the closet” well if that term helps you understand what I am saying sure why not. Does it mean I am gay, trans, or gender fluid? Well again whatever helps you sleep at night.

No, what I want to make sure is this, I am who I am and I don’t care what other people think. I don’t want to hide anymore. As far as why I wrote this. I had to. I needed to make sure I set the record straight. I am not entirely gay nor am I completely straight. I am not entirely trans nor am I entirely gender fluid but I am not going to fit into a box. That is all.

There is another person living inside my mind, heart and soul. Her name is Stephanie Bri. I don’t give her a voice as often as she would like. But I have come to accept she isn’t a part of me, or rather a separate part of me. She is me. We are one. One person, one mind, with one goal. You will likely hear more from Stephanie in the future. At the very least I can finally admit she is real and I am okay with that.

A look back at Daria, an MTV animated hit from the 90s.

I remember it like it was yesterday. The year was 1996. In fact it was the summer of 1996. We had just moved across the country from Hastings, Nebraska to Twin Falls, Idaho. My family was living in an RV park while my parents looked for work and settled into an apartment for us to move into.

My sisters and I were making the most of living in an RV park. We spent most of our day wandering around the video arcade pumping as many quarters as we could get our hands on into different arcade machines. Between that we would play card games to pass the time. Since it was summer school was out. We didn’t have much money so we had to rely on keeping our developing minds occupied as much as possible. This included watching a lot of MTV. Fortunately my sister and I were close in age we both enjoyed MTV equally. Sure we disagreed over the music we enjoyed, she was more into country and pop I was more into alternative and hip-hop.

One day we turned on the TV and there was this cartoon airing on MTV. It was a new show we hadn’t seen before. Neither my sister or myself were that much into cartoons so we were tempted to change the channel. It was an episode with a girl going on a road trip in this run down rock n roll van on their way to something called “Alternapalooza.” Our older sister told us about her ‘palooza she went to recently so it was enough to capture our curiosity at the very least. There was that and my own fascination with alternative music as obviously a teen of the 90s would be.

There was something about this glasses-wearing outcast, dubbed a “brain” by the popular kids on the show that appealed to both of us. In the end we quickly became hooked. My sister enjoyed it as she had a lot of similarities to the two main characters, Daria and her best friend Jane. I enjoyed it for similar reasons while I also, admittedly looked up to Jane’s brother Trent. As stereotypical outcasts ourselves the show not only appealed to us as it gave a voice to the frustrations we were experiencing, but it also gave us ideas how to cope with it.

As the remainder of our own tumultuous youth progressed so did our interest in this satirical outlook of our own youth culture. It was an entertaining yet eye-opening experience. It wasn’t until recently that I watched the show with someone who had been one of the popular jocks who told me the show was very demeaning to athletes. I explained to him that was the point. It’s been a challenge getting people who were at the top of the social ladder to look back and see how their actions adversely affected those of us who were on lower rungs.

I watched the entire series recently as I was given the DVD set as a Christmas present. It started with a casual viewing of season 1 with my sisters kids. By the time I got through the first season I was flooded with a wave of nostalgia and other memories taking me back to my own difficult teenage years. It was a great opportunity to remember not only my own struggle, and subsequent survival of adolescence, it was also great to rewatch my beloved Daria Morgandorfer go through life. As the show progressed I was very glad to enjoy seeing her develop as a person. She went from being a loner with no friends to building a tight relationship with her soon-to-be best friend for life Jane Lane. By the end of the show she had expanded her social circle, overcome her social anxiety and developed her own sense of self esteem and self worth, circling back to the very first episode which centered on her entire lack of self esteem.

How a show ends can be as important as the ups and downs of the show’s run. A good ending can be impactful on the viewer while an underwhelming ending could leave the viewer resentful of the show creators.

This is one of those rare instances where I can say I never felt like the show was dragging on. It felt like it ended exactly when it was supposed to. Needless to say that finale episode filled my heart with a wide range of emotions, more so now 15 years later than it did that first time I viewed. Being slightly removed from the decade, and adolescence I was experiencing throughout, has given me some perspective on the show.

As I sit here at a desk working what is essentially my dream job I have this show to thank for the way it not only inspired me to keep trying, but also how it gave me a way to cope with the stuff I was seeing going on around me. I was one of those outcasts who viewed this show as a faithful follower because it felt good rooting for Daria even though the world kept kicking mud in her face, somehow she always shrugged it off.

As I watched the show I made a few observations. First, it was thoroughly satisfying seeing Daria overcome her social outcast status and become a regular kid, more or less. She made friends along the way and even her peers who initially looked down on her eventually began to afford her the respect she earned. I also noticed the Trent character was a lot deeper than I remembered. He often had some great insights that caught Daria off guard. Then the was the annoyance of the voice actors. In the show’s original run I knew it was small budget and likely recycled voice actors. However I was lying in bed falling asleep while the show played on. During my attempt to nap I noticed a whole scene played out where as I wasn’t looking at the TV it sounded like one person talking to himself despite three different characters being in the scene. There were subtle differences but it was far more noticable than when watching the show. I chalked this up to their voices not being that different thus the visual aid contributed to the ruse. It was especially noticeable that Quinn and her mother shared a voice actor because when I closed my eyes or looked away it became harder to decipher which character was doing the talking.

I was reminded of a lot of things I had put aside. For one, I got to the episode where Jane dates a guy stuck in the 40’s. As my sister was one who had a fondness for I Love Lucy and dressing like an old person I could related. As the episode progressed he kept referencing a khaki commercial. It suddenly dawned on me towards the end of the episode what he was referring to. It was, I believe, a Gap or Old Navy commercial that played for a period in the 90s. It was one of those things that, at the time, stood out and influenced our youth culture albeit briefly. Yet as I look back I realized it wasn’t the type of thing that stuck with me as I had completely forgotten it until that moment.

There was also the memories of the shopping mall, which was a place I spent more than my share of my teen years. I also had some fuzzy memories of the retro PC and internet culture that was casually referenced on occasion. The rising internet culture was often alluded to but never fully explored. If only the show runners knew their bleak outlook of the future would be somewhat accurate.

Then there was the episode where Daria writes a short story. Even when I was a teenager watching the show I felt a stirring about how surreal it was predicting a very possible future that was based on her realistic expectations.

By the end of the show I was impressed with the number of relationships Daria ended up fostering. It ended up being far more than I had remembered. Not just friends or casual acquaintances but there was also the bond she ultimately formed that blossomed into a sisterly lover for Quinn. It was subtle but very obvious by the end of the series the two sisters were indeed going to be there for each other till the end of time. I have since formed a fairly tight bond with the sister I spent much of my youth watching the show with.

Overall it’s been a very good experience taking a stroll down memory lane. I often get nostalgic for things like Roseanne or Home Improvement while I overlook Daria most of the time. While I can get the warm fuzzy feeling of nostalgia watching some Boy Meets World, Daria always grounds me back in reality. The decade wasn’t all that bad. Now if only can I could get that theme tune out of my head. La, la, la, la, la.

47 Sharks below the cave: River City Girls: Winter Soldier revisted and more

https://www.podbean.com/media/share/pb-jr43j-b994c5

Welcome to another exciting episode of The Dark Web Podcast here at The Spiders Lair, Where Chaos Resides. In this episode the topics include two upcoming horror movies, one about sharks the other something else. Captain America: The Winter Soldier is revisted. Also, River City Girls, a sequel of sorts to a cult NES favorite is also a topic. There is more inside so be sure to check it out! Transformers, Hot Wheels and maybe Lego get a nod. 

Snoochie Boochies reboot! Once upon Hollywood, Nintendo woes, and more rock band controversy

https://www.podbean.com/media/share/pb-bsn4w-b8c2e3

I declared the greatest rock band of the 80s and the same for the 90s. I’ve revisited this topic before. I’m getting closer to making my declaration absolutely final.

Jay and Silent Bob are making another Blunt Man and Chronic movie. I am super excited to see this trash. 

The dude who makes popular trash, such as Pulp Fiction and From Dusk Till Dawn is making a new movie I might be interested in.

Nintendo did something kinda noteworthy and I talked about it briefly. In a respectable tone this time.

I revised my stance on classic console generations. I am still stuck on one thing.

Nicole is sitting pretty on Big Brother. She just had a shitty week turned great with a nice backdoor turned blindside. 

I also asked a question about books and stuff.

Remembering political icon Ross Perot

I was in grade school the first time I saw Ross Perot on TV. I was instantly enamored by the way he spoke. Even at a young age I knew I was fascinated by the things he talked about. I was young enough I didn’t fully understand, after all I was barely in the 3rd grade. But he is absolutely the reason I became so fascinated not only in politics but also business. The way he presented his argument with those charts, it just mesmerized me.

It wasn’t long before I started developing that interest in politics into a passion. I still remember Nickelodeon making fun of Perot in a number of skits as part of its All That program. The show might have contributed to my awareness of the individual. While I was in 5th grade my interest in how our government works increased tremendously following a field trip to the state capital. It was one of those times where I knew whatever life threw my way I was going to find a way to be involved in politics one way or another.

When I was in high school I turned my interest in politics into a term as student council president of my entire school. That experience was a game changer for me. I distinctly remember the first time we sat down in a room to discuss something as simple as hosting a dance for the school. It turned into a divisive yelling match that demonstrated how polarizing politicking can be at even a young age. Ultimately we never came to terms on the dance and it was handed down to the eighth grade body who took it over while we washed our hands of it. It wasn’t the high note of my young political career. It was a hardy reminder of how different people can be and how hard it is to get them to agree on even something as basic as hiring a DJ.

Even following his passing I was reminded how complex people can be listening to all the responses of others who had their own memories of the man. I admittedly never met him nor did I have any work related to his life. I have interviewed politicians before for my newspaper but never Ross Perot, sadly. Based on the stories I was told by colleagues who had that opportunity I can say I kind of wish I had been given a chance to cover him at some point but alas it is not to be.

I don’t want to write an editorial on his life or even a commentary on his political views. Rather I just want to remember as fondly as I can how one man’s campaign for president inspired me to get interested in politics in general.